Let's Talk About Brielle, Shall We?

Can I just say that Brielle is the most amazing human on the planet? Oh wait...I've never actually met her, but that doesn't matter, right?

We text all the time and since I introduced her to the world of video snapchat, we have been video snapchatting ever since. One night, we video snapchatted for (I kid you not) like 3 hours. It was SOOOO awesome!

But did you also know that Brielle does prints? And not just any prints, but PHENOMENAL prints.
She sent me this ADORABLE state print showing my home town of Sugar City! I just love it!

But I also love these eat, drink, and be merry prints!

I mean, adorable right?

Go check out her shop! She also does blog design and she is FABULOUS!!!

summer summer summer summer summer summer summer

Okay. That was a lot of summer's. But guys... IT'S SUMMER!

My absolute favorite thing about summer is the night life.

I went on a night hike a couple weeks ago and it was the PERFECT weather. Slightly breezy and cool. It was amazing!

Not only do I love summer nights, but I also love summer outfits!

 Headband: Vintage Wanna Bee

 I'm funny sometimes. 

 Shirt: Plato's Closet, Shorts: Maurices

Also, let's talk about how much we all love Laura

Perfect summer outfit, right?!

What have you guys been up to this summer?

What I've Found

Over the last couple of weeks, I have found that putting the Lord first is what truly makes me happy.

But "putting the Lord first" has always been kind of a hard concept for me to grasp. It was always somewhat foreign to me because I never knew what exactly I needed to do to accomplish it. However, what I've found is that putting the Lord first means having the desire to be a better person and doing the little things. Because by having that desire, you are exercising the Lord's Atonement. 

For me, I couldn't just wake up one day and say "hey! I want to put the Lord first!", my thought process began with "I want to be a better person by studying and pondering my scriptures every single night" 

And once I started studying my scriptures,

I began praying better,

and once I started praying better, 

I wanted to start reading conference talks more,

and once I started reading conference talks, 

I started feeling the Spirit ALL THE TIME,

and now that I feel the Spirit with me at all times and in all things and in all places, 

I can't tell you the difference I have felt in my life.

entering sugar city, pop. 1514

I had the most fabulous week last week with some of the greatest girls in the world!

These girls came up for our roommates' wedding in Idaho Falls and they decided to come visit me in Sugar City!

If you don't know already, I'm from Sugar City, Idaho and it is the most fabulous, adorable little town you have ever seen!

Someone once told me that it sounds like it's from a fairytale!

And I would have to agree!

 Sarah, Me, Naomi, & Emeline

 The trampoline in my backyard! :)

 Yup. That really is the population.

Sugar City consists of a gas station, a restaurant, a hardware store, a grocery store, and a post office.

And there's one stop sign on the main road.

 All of us roommates at Megan's wedding!

 The sign on an old grain silo on the edge of Sugar City

Rexburg temple!

Sarah, Naomi, and Emeline fell in love with Sugar City and I'm so happy I was able to share something with them that claims part of my heart.

Stop by, sometime yeah?

i have worth

a lot times i don't think i have worth.  why? because I'm not a size 2. In fact, I'm a size 16-18. i try to shop the sales racks, but instead of extra large's there are extra small's i go running ALL THE TIME, but it doesn't seem to help i watch as girls who are sticks shove as many cookies into their mouth as they want and nothing happens i'm terrified to eventually have kids because i know i'll balloon up and never be able to lose the weight

to be honest, most of the time its not so bad. especially if i'm wearing something that makes me feel BOMB but it's a trial and something that i struggle with on a daily basis. i have to look at myself in the mirror EVERY DAY and say to myself "it doesn't matter how much you weigh, no one notices but you! You can go rock those patterned leggings..." (if i happen to be wearing patterned leggings that day...) 
a lot of my life has consisted of me being terrified that boys won't like me because i'm not skinny. when i was about sixteen, i heard somewhere that boys only liked girls if they were skinny and ever since i have had this horrid ideology that i am not worth being loved. for a long time, i have kept my distance from boys because i'm scared that they will somehow be disappointed by what they see. a lot of this comes from me. no one has ever told me that i'm not worth being loved it's just a stigma i've attached to myself but it's still hard to deal with.
however, i decided this summer that i am going to change that. i am sick of feeling like i'm not worth it. my solution to this problem? pick a boy that i would want to date.  a boy that i would never ever think in a million years would ever like me. then act like there is NOTHING that he doesn't like about me. be myself. have fun around him. don't worry about my weight or how that is affecting his decision to like me. if he's even thinking that at all!! remember that i'm worth everybody and anybody's attention. get over the fact that i'm a size 18 and remember what is really great about myself: like the fact that i can talk to anyone and i have really great legs and i strive to be a kind as i can to everyone and i have a solid testimony of jesus christ...ya know, stuff like that.
these kinds of good qualities about me are what's going to make me feel "worthy" of any kind of love. romantic-wise or friendship-wise. my stake president a couple years back said this once: "you can't convert somebody beyond your own conversion" i would venture to say that "you can't love somebody unless you love yourself" so, gosh darn it! I'm going to love myself!!


Yours Charmingly giveaway winner ASHLEY ALLEN!!! Email me back cute girl and I'll get you your necklace!